Onward

I hate that something that feels so good ends in so much pain.

I could hold on and cling to that last bit of comfort,

but I know that I'll just wake up with that pain again.

I can only fool myself for so long.

One day I'll wake up and realize what I've done to the both of us for my comfort.

Maybe it's today.

I want it to be.

I want to hold on and feel you still,

but I can't.

There is nothing left to hold on to.

It's gone.

I'm letting go of the shadow.

I can recall my reality.

I need to remember what I want.

What I need.

My only regret is time wasted,

precious moments I'll never get back.

Spent all for naught.

But life goes on.

I'm picking myself up and moving forward.

Unhindered.

Free.

Thank you, Rosie Thomas :)

Why waste your time?
There is nothing left
Voices in your head tell you to do it
No one will care
No one will know
Everyone just looks out for themselves

It's so hard letting go
Letting go of love
It might cause some pain, I know
But pain is all we've got

Why waste more time?
Time is all you have
Be careful what you say they'll hold you to it
No one will care
No one will know
Everyone feels sorry for themselves

It's so hard letting go
Letting go of love
It might cause some pain, I know
But pain is all you've got
It may be the only way to know
That you can get yourself back up

Lyrics: Rosie Thomas

Life is too short to coast through.

I have purpose, and I want to live like I do.

If you can't love with your entire heart, don't bother.

where has it gone?

Stability,

Security,

Peace,

Joy,

Light.

Given up.

For what?

For love?

Love is loyal,

and does not forsake one love for another.

Love is not selfish,

love does not ask for what it knows you cannot live without.

Love is giving,

and would never steal away from you all that matters in your life.

This is not love.

It is beautiful.

It is a hint of what love could be,

but it is not love.

So why am I here?

Why am I doing this?

Why am I following blindly in the path of the one I so despise?

I want my joy.

I want my peace.

I want my LIGHT.

I don't need the raging storms to stop.

All I need is my guiding light.

My anchor.

My fire.

Let the storms rage

and the arrows fly.

What I have cannot be taken from me.

My light may grow dim,

My strength may fail,

but I will never be left empty,

nor forsaken.